Sunday, November 30, 2008
Its so much different with her
shes so much harder to talk to
you guys have all seen me
I talk to anyone
I am extremely outgoing
even with people i dont like, i can talk to
not her
i guess its because im afraid
i know its silly, but im afraid that everything that went wrong the first time
will happen again
its like if i talk to her, bad things will happen
if i dont talk to her, well forget that because we all know that she or I will not allow that
and if i talk to her but dont, ya know what i mean where you just have meaningless conversation,
yah that wont happen because weve been trying that for a couple months now and i cant stand it
I dont think she realizes how hard it is
for me to be friends with her
how much work and decisions i put into just this low quality relationship we have now
she expects more out of me
but im afraid of what more will do
and it seems like there is nowhere to run
(im going to end with a quote because i think that other people can get my point across better than i can)
after all, "its not easy...to be...me"
shes so much harder to talk to
you guys have all seen me
I talk to anyone
I am extremely outgoing
even with people i dont like, i can talk to
not her
i guess its because im afraid
i know its silly, but im afraid that everything that went wrong the first time
will happen again
its like if i talk to her, bad things will happen
if i dont talk to her, well forget that because we all know that she or I will not allow that
and if i talk to her but dont, ya know what i mean where you just have meaningless conversation,
yah that wont happen because weve been trying that for a couple months now and i cant stand it
I dont think she realizes how hard it is
for me to be friends with her
how much work and decisions i put into just this low quality relationship we have now
she expects more out of me
but im afraid of what more will do
and it seems like there is nowhere to run
(im going to end with a quote because i think that other people can get my point across better than i can)
after all, "its not easy...to be...me"
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Dreams
what is the point of a dream?
not like a goal like in the title of my blog
but the kind that you have during sleep
its like there is no point
some people believe its a warning for later events
but honestly, how many times have you had a dream and ir related back to your life
maybe its just a work of imagination
maybe we dont use it enough during the day that it has to be used at night when we are unconcious
thats probably why we dont have dreams some nights
some days we do use our imagination
i bet you have figured out by now that i had a disturbing dream last night
ya know the kind where the people you love hate you and the people you hate love you
and youre not acting yourself
during the dream you ask "why the hek did I do that, i would never do such a thing"
but yah
thats annoying
it makes you feel bad about yourself...
not like a goal like in the title of my blog
but the kind that you have during sleep
its like there is no point
some people believe its a warning for later events
but honestly, how many times have you had a dream and ir related back to your life
maybe its just a work of imagination
maybe we dont use it enough during the day that it has to be used at night when we are unconcious
thats probably why we dont have dreams some nights
some days we do use our imagination
i bet you have figured out by now that i had a disturbing dream last night
ya know the kind where the people you love hate you and the people you hate love you
and youre not acting yourself
during the dream you ask "why the hek did I do that, i would never do such a thing"
but yah
thats annoying
it makes you feel bad about yourself...
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Dont worry be happy
I promise i will write something meaningful soon...I just need inspiration so sit tight
Monday, November 24, 2008
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