by the end of this piece i realized i have an obsession with 8th grade girls

you know what i hate about high school?

there is no kathy

whenever i needed to tell someone something, id wait for chorus and ask to sit next to kathy then wed talk

its not like that anymore

yah i can tell some people some things

but not like i did with her, i didnt skimp on anything really
maybe some things

im gunna copy tiv and do one of those things to everybody

so

kathy- hey... so yah, i miss you. i didnt really realize how much you meant to me until now that youre gone. i could use one of you. there is something so stress relieving, calming, easy-to-talk-to thing about you. i miss that. do chorus next year, altos sit in front of the basses so you can sit in front of me and we can chill. <3

tiv- idk where to start...i loved talking to you all last year. i have no more IM and i actually know you now. its weird. i loved those therapy sessions where i would just ask what was going on and if there was anything you wanted to talk about. we need a deep conversation. thats the thing about friends, they should be able to have both good conversations and fun ones, and i miss them from you because you give the best of both

hannah- ha... ha...umm you realize there is no point in this i dont need you, you dont need me thing. who cares even if it is true (not saying it ). does it make a difference. we tend to complicate things too much. CHILL

myzee- i have taken my long hug to the next level. I do it to a couple more people now and it is super fun. I will never forget that. I miss not being there for you. not knowing whats going on, so i cant help. i guess thats the price you pay for being older

nicole- oh nicole...i am telling you, one of my hugs will make it all better so when i ask you for a hug you need to take advantage of it girl. otherwise idk. i havent really been in your place before so just hold on to your friends. theyll always do you good

cass- BFFN! what is up? we havent done one of our awesome hugs in a while. i miss just chilling with you and making fun of your fruitiness. its fun. no harm meant though. ill always love you even though you stalked me :)

helen- friend. umm yah. so. i havent talked to you in a while. i dont really have anything to say but yah

erica- guess what. i love you. you knew that i bet. its weird not being in school with you. having no ones hand to slip my hand into. no one to pass notes with. well i take that back. no one to pass notes like we do with. btw i found out someone ELSE likes me. liked me. whatever. idk who it is yet. but twas funny. you need to come over to my house over xmas vaca. itll be weird to remember us doing the same thing last year ya know?

To all- i wore a sweater today. it was awesome. i like vanilla candles, though you probably knew that. i wish i was a small animal. something that would make life harder. like not emotionally like they way it is now but like, actually hard to stay alive. just for a little while though. if you had 9 lives, what would you do with them?