Once again, i feel so clueless

like everything,
every question
every asnwer
every story
every thing i should know

is right in front of me

unlike any of the rest of you, im in high school
i have homework and i am doing basketball

thats all i do
erica knows
i have no time to even talk to her on the phone anymore

and while i am playing and doing work, things are happening

that i feel so blinded to
problems
all of you
have problems
and i cant help if i dont know, and it makes me feel bad that i dont

erica emailed me and told me that two days of school this week had been the worst 2 days of her life
i still have no idea what happened
and i am yearning to know

then there is hannah
there is ALWAYS hannah
i think she assumes i know whats going on

i dont

im so lost
i dont know what to say to that girl anymore
i swear, i want to delete every email

but i know i cant, for her sake

now im not saying i dont need her
thats not true
i just think that our relationship with each other is much different than anything that were used to

yah school's keepin me busy
ive finally established my group of friends for the year
took me a while i know
but still

molly is in that group (i really hope she gets to read this)
yah cora thinks she likes me
idk if she does but whatever
so cora tells molly that she would pay her 80 bucks if shed kiss me
molly thought about it for a second and said make it 200
cora said ok

i was like "molly dont do anything stupid"
she didnt, but ill tell ya, i was scared there for a second

weve had 2 basketball games
were 1-1
ive scored 10 points on the season
i dont get the ball enough
cole has made two buzzer beater beyond half court shots
while most of the team said o my god
riley used the phrase "hole f**ker"
it was funny

were singing "little saint nick" for mens chorus
i hope you know that song
its a great song, but i really want you to take a look at the words if you get a chance

im hungry

i have a question...am i able to have a serious conversation?

earlier this year i said that i wanted to watch more NBA basketball
arent i ridiculous?
more sports
but yah ive been doin well
ive seen more celts games already than all of last year
i know the team like the back of my hand

i bet nobody read this far

nobody cares about the REAL life of me
nobody ever does

who honestly wants to hear about some of this stuff
i know i dont
i would have stopped reading it halfway through

so yah
i want comments on this

p.s. im a horrible person

^that is my new excuse for everything because it is SO TRUE